Monday, December 31, 2007

Happy New Year:

Peace, Love, and all the best for 2008.
This is my wish for you.
**

Representative Song, for New Year's Eve, 2007:



Love, Will. See you at Wordpress.com

http://will69b.wordpress.com
(copy & paste it!.... What! I should do all your work!~~lol!)

Friday, December 28, 2007

Taste it...waste it....when gone:



Happy New Year.
Hope.
Peace.
Love.
Forgiveness.
Charity.
Grace.
Togetherness.
Compassion.
**
Hold on to these things.
Live Them.
**
xx,Will.

Wednesday, December 12, 2007

"You Can't Touch This!....

Yes. My "grits" are ready!
kisses,Will.
12/12/2007 [7:23pm]


Link: sevenload.com

Wednesday, November 14, 2007

GONE!

Goodbye, Blogger.com

~~It's been Sweet.{2005-2007}

Believe.



Love always, to my friends,

Will.

NEEDFUL EDIT: I JUST RECEIVED THIS E-MAIL FROM THE NATIONAL MARFAN FOUNDATION. BECAUSE THIS IS A SYNDROME/CONDITION I'VE LIVED WITH, I THOUGHT I'D POST THIS MESSAGE FYI. ANYONE INTERESTED TO KNOW MORE ABOUT MARFAN'S, SHOULD TUNE IN TO "The Today Show," on THURSDAY, NOVEMBER 15TH. THANK YOU, for being a friend & reader of this blog, and putting up with all of the many transitions & "personas" I've been. (to paraphrase Todd Rundgren:

"A THEME GOES ON FOREVER"

E-Mail Message:

National Marfan Foundation

We are pleased to inform you that Marfan syndrome is expected to get national attention on Thursday, November 15*, as a result of a feature segment on the Today Show, on NBC-TV.

We expect the segment to feature the 2007 Annual Conference as well as the losartan vs. atenolol clinical trial. We are excited because we know that the producer got a lot of great footage, especially at the conference, although we can never know in advance exactly how the piece was cut. With a viewing audience in the millions, we anticipate that the segment will raise a great deal of awareness of Marfan syndrome. We hope that, as a result of seeing the segment, more people will get diagnosed and consider enrolling in the clinical trial.

The NMF is grateful to so many people for their participation in the tapings - for being interviewed or for helping with the many logistics along the way. This includes NMF members Dawn and Brooke Pulliam, Courtney McRae and her parents, and all the children, teens and families at the Annual Conference who were videotaped or interviewed by NBC; Dr. Hal Dietz, Joann Harper, Gretchen Oswald and the nurses in the pediatric outpatient clinic at Johns Hopkins; and the public relations department at Johns Hopkins and the Sheraton Palo Alto.

Please share this information with your Marfan community.



* Please note that this date could change at the last minute, depending on news of the day. We will inform you, if we know in advance.

Wednesday, November 7, 2007

Music for The Long Farewell :

NEEDFUL EDIT: I JUST RECEIVED THIS E-MAIL FROM THE NATIONAL MARFAN FOUNDATION. BECAUSE THIS IS A SYNDROME/CONDITION I'VE LIVED WITH, I THOUGHT I'D POST THIS MESSAGE FYI. ANYONE INTERESTED TO KNOW MORE ABOUT MARFAN'S, SHOULD TUNE IN TO "The Today Show," on THURSDAY, NOVEMBER 15TH. THANK YOU, for being a friend & reader of this blog, and putting up with all of the many transitions & "personas" I've been. (to paraphrase Todd Rundgren:

"A THEME GOES ON FOREVER"

E-Mail Message:

National Marfan Foundation

We are pleased to inform you that Marfan syndrome is expected to get national attention on Thursday, November 15*, as a result of a feature segment on the Today Show, on NBC-TV.

We expect the segment to feature the 2007 Annual Conference as well as the losartan vs. atenolol clinical trial. We are excited because we know that the producer got a lot of great footage, especially at the conference, although we can never know in advance exactly how the piece was cut. With a viewing audience in the millions, we anticipate that the segment will raise a great deal of awareness of Marfan syndrome. We hope that, as a result of seeing the segment, more people will get diagnosed and consider enrolling in the clinical trial.

The NMF is grateful to so many people for their participation in the tapings - for being interviewed or for helping with the many logistics along the way. This includes NMF members Dawn and Brooke Pulliam, Courtney McRae and her parents, and all the children, teens and families at the Annual Conference who were videotaped or interviewed by NBC; Dr. Hal Dietz, Joann Harper, Gretchen Oswald and the nurses in the pediatric outpatient clinic at Johns Hopkins; and the public relations department at Johns Hopkins and the Sheraton Palo Alto.

Please share this information with your Marfan community.



* Please note that this date could change at the last minute, depending on news of the day. We will inform you, if we know in advance.






Famous (last) Words to Ponder while listening to the Music:

[It's been a great ride...can I get off now???~~Will]

"He has all the virtues I dislike and none of the vices I admire." -- Winston Churchill


"I have never killed a man, but I have read many obituaries with great pleasure." -- Clarence Darrow


"He has never been known to use a word that might send a reader to the dictionary." -- William Faulkner (about Ernest Hemingway)


"I've had a perfectly wonderful evening. But this wasn't it." -- Groucho Marx


"I didn't attend the funeral, but I sent a nice letter saying I approved of it." -- Mark Twain


"He has no enemies, but is intensely disliked by his friends." -- Oscar Wilde


"I am enclosing two tickets to the first night of my new play; bring a friend... If you have one." -- George Bernard Shaw to Winston Churchill...followed by Churchill's response: "Cannot possibly attend first night, will attend second, if there is one." -- Winston Churchill


"I feel so miserable without you; it's almost like having you here." -- Stephen Bishop


"He is a self-made man and worships his creator." -- John Bright


"I've just learned about his illness. Let's hope it's nothing trivial." -- Irvin S. Cobb


"He is not only dull himself; he is the cause of dullness in others." -- Samuel Johnson


"He is simply a shiver looking for a spine to run up." -- Paul Keating


"He had delusions of adequacy." -- Walter Kerr


"Why do you sit there looking like an envelope without any address on it?" -- Mark Twain


"His mother should have thrown him away and kept the stork." -- Mae West


"Some cause happiness wherever they go; others, whenever they go." --Oscar Wilde


Lady Astor once remarked to Winston Churchill at a Dinner Party, "Winston, if you were my husband, I would poison your coffee!" Winston replied, "Madam if I were your husband I would drink it!"


Lady Astor also once remarked to Winston Churchill at a Dinner Party, "Sir Winston, you're drunk!" To which, Winston replied, "Yes, Madam, I am. And you're ugly! But in the morning, I will be sober. And you will still be ugly!"

Take care of yourselves, and Others:

~~peace out!



`x~Will [November 7, 2007]

Friday, November 2, 2007

Wednesday, October 31, 2007

It's Halloween! Boo! I'm Outtahere!






Here's some Tunes For You!

~~Love, Will.


Sunday, October 28, 2007

The Final Episode of "SEXUAL NOSTALGIA" has been Posted:


For those who have been following the
Genetic Journey of Maximus Chance....

The Final Installment has been posted.

Have a safe, and sexy,
Halloween.
Take care, Friends.
CLICK HERE >>>for: "Sexual Nostalgia~~The Final Episode"

Thursday, October 25, 2007

Wednesday, October 24, 2007

"I GOT A ROCK!!!!!!!!!!!!~~!

" BottomsUp"~~a Musical Journey?






~~(wink*)~~

"TRICK"!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (shit!)

Ps: I just reached, 2007 Visiter's to this blog!
Man! that's spooky!....I've got a LOT of LURKERS....

....and, bloggish Friends, too. Thank you, for visiting! :)

Saturday, October 20, 2007

EDIT: [10/23/07]: CALI in Mind. I miss what I love. Tonight, I'm thinkin of the love, and losses:


~~rebuilding!
See you here, again,
after Halloween.

Trick or Treat!

ps: in the meantime: check, "bottomsUp" & "rants" (new)..OH!: and, keep
your eyes on the prize,


and,

JUKEBOX!

xx,Will. 9/19/2007. (I'm watchin' THE WHO! Who are YOU?? Who, who?! Who, who?!)

Thursday, October 18, 2007

Tuesday, October 16, 2007

GONE.

sorry.

for real:

Ps: *Did you ever see the movie, "GOOD WILL Hunting"???
That was a really good movie!
*I think I'll rent that one for THURSDAY NIGHT.
*That one and "THE OTHER". [Just in time for Halloween]

*Both movies are good to watch, when you're HALF NEKKID,
and, you're curled up on the couch with, popcorn, a beautiful companion,
and a RISING cock to commence the proceedings (LOL!)....

(wink)

It's Thursday.
I'm still not here yet..


The above is a puzzle.

(go figure!)

xx,Will.

Monday, October 15, 2007

Nothing sexy in this.

I'm not finding anything sexy tonight.
Should I just remain silent, and walk off...
...Or, should I spill everything out inside,
upon this page, as if it were a razor slash,
properly done.

I hurt, and I never felt so alone.
If I don't speak my mind,
I'll lose it.
I'm a hair's breath away from taking my own life.

I'm collapsing, while the rest of my family is running away from each other.
I'm killing myself to please others, be the "good" Son.

There isn't any rest.
All I get is shouting, and anger, directed at me.

I pull the covers over my head...

Here in the blogs, I'm beaten too.
(I'm questioning myself; one who never uses the word "hate"....)

I can't see for crying anymore.

I'm sick, and alone. The rest of my orbit is blind, or running away,
or not speaking at all.

Why? Why?.....(a question asked, after a sudden death...unexpected.)
xx,Will.

Should I give a shit if people hate me:

Fuck yez all!

Got a song stuck in your head?



Sugar, Sugar - The Archies by Various Artists is stuck in my head, and I added it to the playlist below!



Add the song that is stuck in your head to the playlist below and pass it along! Click here to add a song to this playlist!










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Sunday, October 14, 2007

~~For: Os & Lecram, ~~

Thanks for the memories!
The rest, as they say, is History!
Goodnight & Good Luck.
**
twits!





I'm going out....fuckin' a! fuckin' karaoke!....fuck this blog!

Saturday, October 13, 2007

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, PADME!!!

Today is Padme's Birthday. Padme & Anakin's blog is Star Wars themed, and spanking HOT [FYI: to those not familiar with their blog]

They are a wonderful "force," I've enjoyed, and tomorrow is her day.
Go wish Padme a Happy Birthday!>>> "click"

And, may the force always be with you....and, them!

Here's Wishing, Padme & Anakin
some HOT, Star Wars Sex,
on her Birthday!



Love you,

Will. ("bro" always)


Friday, October 12, 2007

Why not....

Why not cry?
Why not shout?
Why not be?

~does anything matter,
when all have flown away;
leaving their foot-prints
where life used to be?~~

Let me wrestle,
alone.
I can see you all running away;
shaking your heads.

Why not,
turn, and look back,

at your words? :


Dissipating,

like fog;

like, every presence,

in inclement weather:

Soon to be gone...

...but, not forgotten.

~~[10/13/07]~~

Monday, October 8, 2007

Sugasm!! 100 delectable Posts of Sugar!!!!!!:

What "Sugar" Song is Stuck in Your Head????? Add it NOW!
Got a song stuck in your head?



Sugar, Sugar - The Archies by Various Artists is stuck in my head, and I added it to the playlist below!



Add the song that is stuck in your head to the playlist below and pass it along! Click here to add a song to this playlist!










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The best of this week’s blogs by the bloggers who blog them. Highlighting the top 3 posts as chosen by Sugasm participants. Want in Sugasm #101? Submit a link to your best post of the week using this form. Participants, repost the link list within a week and you’re all set.

This Week’s Picks
Do you want me…?
“The shiver that runs through you tells me everything I need to know.”

Love that ass (his perspective)
“But as long as we are in here, she submits to my command; to my every whim.”

Hubb and Spoeker
“He was good for show and good in bed, but an asshole in the real world.”

Mr. Sugasm Himself
125 Magazine, Alternet and Enviromentally Friendly Porn

Editor’s Choice
The very best of Sugasm…. so far

More Sugasm
Join the Sugasm

See also: Fleshbot’s Sex Blog Roundup each Tuesday and Friday.

(Sugasm participants should re-post all the links above. The following links may be excluded as long as you include all the above links.)

Thoughts on Sex and Relationships
Being Stuck Outside
Dominance, Submission, Humiliation, Control
Miscarriage and Feminine Identity
The next colonel sanders or orville redenbacher
No more pen and sex
Sex on the first date???
What Is Mary Hiding?
Why “Sugasm” Matters

Sex Work
Do you like phone sex?
La Petite Mort
Sex Work And Religion: The Sex Crazed Pagan Cult Fantasy

NSFW Pics & Videos
I could watch her do laundry all day!
Just Teen Site Releases All New Nude Videos
Red Rose
Today’s Special Offer: Fresh Hamburgers

Sex News & Reviews
Belated Happy 2nd Blogiversary to My Bottom Smarts!
Fetish Film - How to Use Sounds (Urethral Sounds)
First Purity Balls, Now Integrity Balls
It’s HERE!!!! Miss Francy’s “Spanking the Male Mind”!
Team Up with the 6th Annual Blogger Boobie-Thon

BDSM & Fetish
Back To School
Catalina loves Chat
Dancing with the Devil, a D/s Relationship
The Dungeon: Sex Camp, Night One
Fuck of a Lifetime
Harder….
Heat
I Got Your Number
Manhandled
Mira
My Wife is a Skank! pt1
A Nawty Story: Diane Phones Home
Objets d’obsession: neck corsets
Our game
Piss Slut
Who is Elise Sutton and why does it matter?

Erotic Writing and Experiences
100 Sexy
An Affair with the Wind
Corseting Mrs. Russian
Burlesque: Home Coming
Gamahuche
I Succumb to Jefferson’s Dastardly Lesbian Plot!
More Than A Breast-Fondle
The Morning Rollover
Party Blowjob - Part 3

Oh, My Desktop needs Cleaning!!

I have some very "naughty" wallpaper on my desktop!! (wink*)
I have to tell you about this desktop-cleaner I've found.
Click the link, for a cleaning!

FREE CLEANING!!! CLICK ME!


ain't that neat!..and, cute!
`x~Will.

Getting to the Bottom of Things...and, then some!!:


Granted: I am a Topsy-turvy person.
I can fly with the best 'em; however, when I'm down low..I'm really down low.
Admitting this, without fear, has been a focus/focal point, I've been uncomfortable about setting into a blog-post.

**
After a long, drawn-out, illness; one which has cropped-up, over the last 2 years, with almost timed regularity, I've reached a point where darkness is "visible" [thank you, William Styron, for the insight]...

...Marfan Syndrome, tied as it is to the connective tissue, doesn't mix well with depression; as one goes through stress, the heart goes through stress, and the muscles go through stress, and this leads to problems.

**
I've lashed out, in my frustration at people..just as my father, lashes out at me, in his frustration. Apologies, sometimes are the most difficult & hurting aspects, when your sensitivities are aroused.

**
Now, I've made a decision to combine 3 blogs into one. I love writing poetry. I love writing "spanking stories." And, yes, I love celebrating Birthday's.

You'll find, "BottomsUp," "The Wind Shall Hear My Words," and "The Birthday Blog," at Wordpress.com .

**
The link is in "Across The Universe," where you'll also find all those I love.

**
I don't think I could ever really kill myself. I love writing too much; I love too much..period.

Take care, friends.
`X~Will.

Friday, October 5, 2007

okay, let's go & Gone Wrong :

videoIf the world could see me now,//
they'd see I'm no "where" I want to be;//

nothing more, than the thought of a passing car,//
or the act of staying absent//
long enough to make exhaustion,//
complete.//**

I'm sick
of living
life
without love.//

There's no more sweeter alternative,
than being....//**



....gone.

`X~ Will.

Thursday, October 4, 2007

Why "Sugasm" Matters :

[This is the "Sugar Playlist" ~~Perfect for i-Pod; perfect for walking. Click "play" and read.]


It was a beautiful day, for a walk; more like August, than the beginning of October.
Today, while taking my daily Constitutional, I had the Sugasm on my brain.

The Sugasm, (or, Sugasm, as it's commonly called) celebrates it's 100th Post on Monday, October 8th, [Columbus Day, in the USA] 2007. The blog is a collecting of submissions; sex blog, sexy, submissions. It is a weekly digest, which promotes "the best of the week's sex blogs."

100 posts, and thousand's of submissions later, my daily constitutional (10 miles, walking), got me to thinking about, "why Sugasm Matters"; to me, and the people who read it; why, it matters to those who submit their work~~their creativity~~sometimes, on a weekly basis.

For those who have never heard of Sugasm, (and, I'm sure there must be someone in Blogville, who hasn't) please forgive my celebratory post. Maybe, just maybe, you'll be curious enough to check out Sugasm, or submit your own post, next week...(for "Sugasm #101")...

...But until then, if you want more Sugar, you can click the link at the bottom of this post.

So, back to my walk! I carry a little notebook with me wherever I go. It's tucked into the back pocket of my jeans. I always carry a pen. As I walked, I thought about "Why Sugasm Matters"...10 miles, slow walking, enjoying the day, and taking notes.

I wrote down 20 reasons why Sugasm Matters.

Here they are:

1.] Collectively, Sugasm, is far more stimulating than "Tales of The Arabian Night's."

2.] It's Sugar...but, anything BUT fattening.

3.] It's a helluva lot better for you than kegel's!!

4.] If you know what Sugasm is, than you not only understand this blog post~~You're Sexy!!

5.] If you're a contributor, (writer; or, one who submits) to Sugasm, you're a member (or, vagina) of a community of sexy, uninhibited, sex bloggers, who are passionate (ie: "horny") about, not only sex, but, Politics & Poetry as well. That's right, Poetry (the Goooood kind!)

6.] If you're a reader, [lurker, blog-poster, writer who doesn't submit, or commenter] of Sugasm, each week, you'll gain more knowledge, than you will ever find in, "Everything you've Always wanted to Know About Sex," "The Joy of Sex," or, "The Kinsey Report."

7.] Even though "sexual fantasy" is not a substitute for sex...it's better than nothing!

8.] When submitting a blog-post to Sugasm, you're telling the World: "I'm uninhibited, and love sex as much as I love, LOVE!! And, that's saying a lot!

9.] There are far, far, more damaging, and dangerously dark, things in the world, than the Hotness of Sugasm. So, Enjoy.

10.] After spending a few weeks, reading the submissions to Sugasm, you'll find your vocabulary has improved; your general appearance/affect, has strenghened; and, that the variety of your opinions have become so spicy~~they'll be, not only hot...but, sweet, too!

11.] Sugasm is a known cure for headaches, constipation, and e-coli (If you don't believe this, send me an e-mail, I'll tell you a story)

12.] The World, truly, would be a lessor place, without a daily dose of Sugasm.

13.] No where else, will you find humor, politics, poetry, activism, and sex, all on one page~~as wide-ranging as the Telelphone book, and far more interesting!

14.] A well informed public is our best defense. Even for those who "do it" in public.

15.] You can begin the Work-week exploring the, (sometimes) delightful world of BD/SM, without a paddle, or rope, or handcuffs. As a matter of fact, there's always enough blog posts submitted, to last you through the following weekend. It's better, my friends, than going fishing!

16.] You'll always find the best "half-nekkid" people at Sugasm.

17.] You'll always find the best "fully/completely Naked" people at Sugasm.

18.] You'll always find the best people who can write about half- nekkid people, and fully/completely naked people, at Sugasm (whether they be, fictional, or non-fictional.)

19.] The "bare" facts are always a good thing...at Sugasm.

20.] You can keep "Pour Some Sugar On Me," in your Playlist~~Just so you can write a post...just like this!

**
Well. There you have it.
Granted, it's not the sexiest post to appear in Sugasm #100. However, it IS the proper post, in order to Celebrate & give Thanks.

And, why, you may be asking, have I submitted a post to Sugasm, in praise of Sugasm??

That's easy,~~

Maybe, not sexy...but, easy:

Because, Sugasm Matters...to me.

**

Happy 100th. Sugasm.....
Keep on Pouring!

(if you'd like to speak up, and say "why Sugasm Matters" to You, feel free to use the comment box. )
`
x~Will

[for complete, and sexy, FYI, about Sugasm click this: SUGAR TIME!! ]


Coming Up! : "Why Sugasm Matters."...(and, the Universe expanded!)...brb.

Tuesday, October 2, 2007

Sugasm # 99: If it's Monday...it Must Be Sugasm! :

The best of this week’s blogs by the bloggers who blog them. Highlighting the top 3 posts as chosen by Sugasm participants. Want in Sugasm #100? Submit a link to your best post of the week using this form. Participants, repost the link list within a week and you’re all set.

This Week’s Picks
Don’t think..
“As you read this, you reach for your cock and stroke it slowly, in anticipation of our eventual meeting.”

I’ll be out in 2 mins, I’m just brushing my teeth…
“One centimetre at a time, he slid oh so slowly into me and then retreated out again.”

We all have Secrets
“I’ll give you a little reminder - it was when he and his wife were making me cum so hard that I blacked out.”

Mr. Sugasm Himself
Iris Bahr’s Festive World

Editor’s Choice
Letter to a Lover

More Sugasm
Join the Sugasm

See also: Fleshbot’s Sex Blog Roundup each Tuesday and Friday.

(Sugasm participants should re-post all the links above. The following links may be excluded as long as you include all the above links.)

Erotic Writing and Experiences
Better than Cocktails
The Birthday Box
Burlesque: Getting Ready
Dab
Eponymous
Heaven
I assigned Kis Lee the word ‘resentment’
In the city lights
Loaded
A Much Needed Climax

Sexual Poetry
Symplexity Presents: A Wild Ride

BDSM & Fetish
Arrival: Sex Camp, Day One
Boy Toy
Catalina loves Guest Cock
Counting the Days
Dizzy
Gloved
M is for Manhandled
Movie, tit whipping, and anal sex
No Big Deal… Or Not?

Sex News & Reviews
Happy 2nd Blogiversary to Always Aroused Girl!
Fleshlight Review
A Nawty Mouz’s Sexy Library of Kinky Linkies!
Violet Wands

Thoughts on Sex and Relationships
The 100 Unsexiest Men Of 2007
I think we broke my dick…
Not everything has a pre-emptive strike…
Now what?
Radical Fucking Honesty

Sex Work
Sex Work And Religion: The Pagan And The Jew

NSFW Pics & Videos
Antea & Christina (errotica archives)
Death or an invitation?
Friends, Frenemy’s, Half-Naked Peeps! Lend me your ears!
Half-Nekkid Public Exposure
Monique Alexander Nude
Monika - Chat Noir

Monday, October 1, 2007

"it'll be alright...."


It's the end of September,
and I've become fearless;

no longer shuddering,
like the leaves outside my window,

browning, and blown,
into October.

**
Tonight, I'll sing,
letting the words escape,
and surround.

It'll be alright,...

...as long I have the smiles
of friends to see me through,

to the last bars:

a refrain.

Thank YOU.
`X~ Will.


Friday, September 28, 2007

"There, there..." :

I understand,
better than you think.

It was one of those days today,
where at it conclusion,
I wished I were dead.

~~holding myself together;
whispering, "there..there..."

Nothing is ever over,
though, at times, we may wish it were.

{This world is good enough for me,
and you're memories.}

I'm finding myself,
crying;
looking into your eyes, father...

**
I understand, the darkness in your heart.
I understand,

more than you think.....

I'll never gain your trust,
respect.

"there..there..."








good night,
love, Will.

Wednesday, September 26, 2007

Friends, Frenemy's, Half-Naked Peeps! Lend me your ears! :

This is going to be the last video..after this one,
it's on with other things ~~(What will this be?...we'll see.)



With love, Will.

Saturday, September 22, 2007

Film Editing 101: "Spell check the END CREDITS" :

My latest attempt at Political Satire. IT's Saturday Night, in New York City!

enjoy!

"STARR WARS"~~ReTuRn oF ThE LiBs!

Add to My Profile | More Videos

~x~ Will

Thursday, September 20, 2007

Out-Patient....


....11:28 pm. September 20, 2007.

~~There's so much I could tell you, but I won't. Just the facts:.
I'm glad I checked into the hospital.

I didn't stay in, as long as I thought I'd be in~~and, (believe it, or not) even the food tasted good. I've got to STOP smoking (Joining the Program!)~~

The small blood vessels have been effected by the cigs, causing the arteries to work all the harder. Why I ever continued to smoke, (even after a spontaneous collapsed lung. [Well, I did stop for a year. I was 18 years old!]) is beyond me.

~~I've got my Meds under control. Depression is a bitch...(tonight, I'm not even worried about the stigma of Mental Illness) Honesty tells me I'm not alone;...

...not the only only one seeing a doctor, on an Out-patient basis.

(There is so much I could tell you, but I won't)

See you later,

xx, Will.


Sunday, September 16, 2007

Her first Home:

Quiet today. Reflective.

[Just a final note written,
till I return. ]
~~Here's a poem I wrote, a while back.
It's a poem about my mom's first home. Today, the second year of her passing is past:

**

The Blue House on Sherman Street


My father was talking tonight

About the Blue House on Sherman Street,

“Where Mom & I lived, with her folks,
After we got married…”

It was up the road, from the Lake,
And I remember being there as a child;
Visits, long after they’d found an apartment,
And, settled into a house,
And, had three kids:
One of which,
Was me.

How it is,
Houses
Stay with you,
As you carry them forward,
Tentatively, like those newly married,
~~If only, re-living~~
Or, basking in Sunlight, on a Summer’s Day.

I’ve given an ear to my Pop tonight,
And, among his Stories, I heard:

The closing of another Chapter…The memory, flying backwards…
Only, for a moment,
We were happy there~~
Paired together~~in our remembrances,

Of that Blue House on Sherman Street,
Where the
Beginnings of an end,

Are Cherished.

**

[Take care. I shall see you all again, asap.]

xx,Will.

Friday, September 14, 2007

UPDATE:

Well. They'll have a bed for me on Monday.
They've got me going in for a full work-up.
Leg & foot problems, (related to the Marfans)

The depression (which has worsened, over the last few weeks) will get the attention it needs also.

Friends,
I'll see you when I'm released...





Love,Will.

EDIT: My Latest Podcast:
For my Family & Friends...and, dedicated in Memory, to my Mom (September 16, 2007~~2 years gone, and still a presence.)

Thursday, September 13, 2007

Collapsed :


I'll be going in the hospital.

Wait up for me, k?

Love, Will.

Real. Anniversaries are tough. Breathe. :

It is 4:45 a.m..

In the next room, my father moans in his sleep.
He may not be sleeping, as he moans.

He moans at night,
like a baby, or a wounded bear-cub, with its foot caught in a trap.

He passes his misery on,
as I toss and turn and finally fall
myself~~while awake.

**

Each day, I've tried to move forward.
I've never been as low as I've been the last few days...
...I don't want to leave my bed.

**
Today, I see two doctors.
One is going to talk to me about my depression;
the other, will examine my eyes,
my heart,
my bones,
and, chart where Marfan's syndrome has taken me.

**
Anniversaries are tough.
On Sunday, it will be two years since my mother's death~~
her passing has effected our family in ways unspeakable,
and ever-lasting (so it seems)....

**

....and, I miss her solidity, her outspokenness.
Everyone, including my father,
knew where they stood, when she was in a room.
She held nothing back,
and, gave up, too quickly....

**

....The air escaping;
the breath,
a fluttering of her heart~~
lifted,

and, gone.

**

Now, I see the circle we've traversed.
There is an opening,
between these moans, this crying.

**
I love the old man, in the next room...
There is no changing him.

In his eyes, I'm still the youngest,

All too real,
at 4:45...

...a.m.

**






Just breathe.

~x~ Will.

~~sexy....yet? ~ ~

Wednesday, September 12, 2007

I'm really getting into this Podcast Thing:


SUGASM # 69...(typo/correction)..., I mean, #96!! :


The best of this week’s blogs by the bloggers who blog them. Highlighting the top 3 posts as chosen by Sugasm participants. Want in Sugasm #97? Submit a link to your best post of the week using this form. Participants, repost the link list within a week and you’re all set.

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This Week’s Picks
Tips and Sugestions on having sex with me.
“I’m a slut, but I’m an ethical one.”

Wet
“You can smell this wet. It glistens on my thighs.”

A Brief Meeting with the Girl Next Door
“You can pay me by teaching me how you like to be licked.”

Mr. Sugasm Himself
Stacked Decks

Editor’s Choice
Concentration?

More Sugasm
Join the Sugasm

See also: Fleshbot’s Sex Blog Roundup each Tuesday and Friday.

(Sugasm participants should re-post all the links above. The following links may be excluded as long as you include all the above links.)

Thoughts on Sex and Relationships
Beautiful
How To Set Up a MFF/FMF Threesome (and Live)
“Sexual Fantasy # 1″ : For Art’s Sake!”
Tara’s Private Diary: Guilty Pleasures
“We’re just good friends”

NSFW Pics & Videos
Half-Nekkid Footballer
A Jewell in bondage, pantyhose and latex
Pagan Lust
Pamela Anderson Showing Thong in See Through White Clothes
Valerie Vasquez Nude

Erotic Writing and Experiences
Hot House pt. 1
The Missing Sex Scene: Superman
Now
Syncronicity
Theater
To the ground floor
Vivid memories, solo vacation edition

Sex News & Satire
The Great Porn Debate
Half-Nekkid Schoolgirl
Retro Sex Blog Turns 1 Year Old!
What if…? Suzanne’s story

BDSM & Fetish
Catalina loves Sexual Fantasies
Center peace
Full Circle - Part II
Good morning little schoolgirl
Hair
Ring

Sex Work
Labor Day - but not for sex workers?